Sunday, March 31, 2019

What's next?

A blog post from 2014:


The Human Future

I have no children or grandchildren in my life. Sometimes I feel this as a profound loss. But at other times, contemplating the human future, I feel relief: I have no descendants whose inevitable future suffering would keep me awake.

I have no doubts that worldwide human suffering will define our future, perhaps for a century or more. It's not only that Nature is getting its justifiable revenge from what Cummings called mankind's "prodding fingers," pushing short term "progress" without regard to long term consequences. This has started and will become far worse. But what bothers me more are the conflicts that will be driven by water and food shortages.

I foresee another historic period of revolutions, lasting decades and defined by an angry poor subclass rising against a frightened ruling wealthy class. It will be as horrific and ugly as anything experienced in the French Revolution. This is our legacy to grandchildren and future generations.

Those who can afford it will escape and colonize Mars. This is how the species will survive. The wasteland left behind on Earth will make Eliot's vision look like utopia.

This story is neither new nor original. There are many theories of why humans developed this way, but the one that makes the most sense to me is found in the magnificent prose poem LOVE'S BODY by Norman O. Brown.

Brown's book ends this way: "Everything is only a metaphor; there is only poetry." He closes with a quotation from Foundations of Tibetan Mysticism.

Western culture came to dominate the world and, driven by what Brown calls Protestant Literalism, led the parade to our crisis today. Considerable contrary visions in the culture itself were ignored to do this: Transcendentalism, for example, where Emerson argued that a man is defined by his thinking; the interior life trumps action. Thus Brown can argue that contemporary war is war perverted, and the problem is not war itself but the perversion.

And what is this perversion? Brown turns to William Blake, one of his greatest influences: the real fight is the mental fight, "the Fiery Chariot of His Contemplative Thought." Blake's image has always resonated with me. It is the basis of the title of my first play, Above the Fire. It creates the subtext of my recent essay, Creativity. Faith. Impotence.

I think Brown is right about where Western Culture went wrong but I get no satisfaction from this. The human tragedy remains the same. However, I do get a kind of solitary solace, knowing I can step away and create my own world in which baking bread, playing with the dog, brooding, writing, are acts that bring me peace, acts that are their own reward.

My life has been blessed, and I feel blessed, in moments like writing here, that I am old and my future short, and when I pass I leave no generation behind. If this is not the best of possible worlds, it also is not the worst.

Friday, March 29, 2019

From an earlier blog


"All humanity's troubles come from not knowing how to sit still in one room," - Blaise Pascal.

From The New Yorker

From <i>The New Yorker</i>

Extraordinary theater season

RISK IN REP

Remembering Peter Fornara’s Remarkable Theater Company

By Charles Deemer

(To appear in Citadel of the Spirit, edited by Matt Love)



            At first glance, it’s a typical no-budget program put together by a struggling theater group: a sheet of paper folded once, cover on front and season calendar on back, with the play particulars (cast, crew, etc.) on the inside pages, everything typewritten and machine copied in black, white and gray. A simple graphic on the front cover, a neutral theater mask, adds a small touch of class.

The program belongs to David Olson, and he treats it with care because it’s an important artifact. Olson, who’s been Portland’s Director of Cable Communications for several decades, was a young actor in the 1978 theater season represented by this program, a participant in and witness to Oregon theatrical history. This is the program of the Fall, 1978, theater season of Peter Fornara’s The Production Company, an ambitious and remarkable season of plays that has not been matched by any Oregon theater company since then for its reach, risk, energy, achievement and circumstances of creation.

            The four plays listed on the cover begin to tell the story: Cabaret, Marat/Sade, Joe Egg, American Buffalo. These four plays – a dark musical set in Nazis Germany, an even darker music drama set in an insane asylum, a disturbing family drama and a tough-edged story of street thugs – would make for a remarkable season at any time because they lack the variety typical of commercial theater selections. All these plays are serious. All have dark visions of human experience. Today a theater company might add one of them, even two, to its season – but four “heavy” plays in a row? Never!

Adam Schiff rocks

Q.E.D.

LEST WE FORGET THE HORRORS: A CATALOG OF TRUMP’S WORST CRUELTIES, COLLUSIONS, CORRUPTIONS, AND CRIMES


An appalling list begins here. And it's incomplete!

Truly this is the most despicable, unfit, immoral individual ever to be in public life. His followers should be ashamed of themselves, forgiving this man's character because of one reason or another. Character is the bottom line, or should be.

What Trump thinks of the U.S. Constitution

Thursday, March 28, 2019

Donald Trump is the most un-American president in living memory

By Richard Wolffe

Since its earliest days, America has prided itself on having a government of laws, not of men.
The driving idea of John Adams was written into the Massachusetts constitution – the model for the United States, Japan, Germany, India and South Africa – as the best way to build a country free from tyranny.
If you can protect freedom, you can create more freedom for everyone. Or as Bono memorably put it more recently: “America is not just a country but an idea, a great idea of opportunity for all and responsibility to your fellow man.”
So where does that great American idea stand today, 17 months into its 45th presidency?

Read it.

WH atrocities

'We Are Running Concentration Camps': Images From El Paso Stir Outrage Over Migrant Treatment

The conditions in El Paso reminded some observers of the worst of humanity. 

Wednesday, March 27, 2019

Nader nails it

Forget Mueller. Forget Impeachment. A Million People Should Surround the White House and Demand Trump's Resignation


Moral passion

Tuesday, March 26, 2019

Citizen Screenwriter

From Movie Outline:

Citizen Screenwriter

By Charles Deemer

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Immediately after the terrorists' attack on the World Trade Center on September 11th, Hollywood responded by pulling movies scheduled for release that, in the horrific context of the times, suddenly were considered to be "in bad taste."

Question: why weren't these movies in bad taste before the attack?

Another question: what responsibilites, if any, does the screenwriter have to the society at large? What does it mean to be a "citizen screenwriter"?
Read the article. 

Hear, hear!

From BD Hollly:
Does an innocent man ask James Comey to let the Flynn thing go? Does an innocent man then fire James Comey? Does an innocent man declare his innocence before being accused? Does an innocent man have legions of his underlings found guilty of crimes, the outcomes of which happened to benefit him? Does an innocent man appoint people who wouldn’t even consider doing anything that might expose his culpability? Does an innocent man kowtow to the strongmen in charge of hostile foreign adversaries? Does an innocent man have secret meetings with them? Who cares about what Bill Barr scribbled out in his letter Sunday? The facts are in: Donald Trump is guilty.

Monday, March 25, 2019

Tick tock

Louisiana’s Disappearing Coast

The state loses a football field’s worth of land every hour and a half. Now engineers are in a race to prevent it from sinking into oblivion.


Anonymous professor speaks out

What happens after rich kids bribe their way into college? I teach them



Universities are becoming a disgrace. Capitalism marches on.

Saturday, March 23, 2019

Opinions The heart-warming tale of the 8-year-old chess champion is quintessentially American

Hear, hear!

Jacinda Ardern Shows Trump What Leadership Looks Like

“He asked what offer of support the United States could provide. My message was sympathy and love for all Muslim communities.”

Wednesday, March 20, 2019

Play ball!

Mariners beat Athletics in Japan, 9-7, a nice present for Ichiro. I caught last few innings at 5 a.m. Another game today, or tomorrow, or whenever it is in Japan.


Tuesday, March 19, 2019

March madness and literature

The Big Dance, male version, began tonight. One team was Fairleigh Dickinson University, which rang a bell. After a moment, I remembered: the university publishes The Literary Review. This journal was one of the first to welcome my literary short stories.

When I dropped out of grad school to see if I could write, I made a list of literary magazines I wanted to publish in. Two at the top of the list were Prism International (U of BC) and The Literary Review (FDU), chosen because both were international, publishing world lit. That meant non-American readers. I think I had a gut feeling that my work would do better over the ocean.

At any rate, FDU came from behind to win and so move on.

Here are my stories from FDU's The Literary Review:

Fragments Before the Fall (1971)
I WALK a tightrope between two mountain tops over the Valley of the Waters of Fire. The waters are rising and all too soon the flames will disengage the embracing strands of fiber which hold me up, casting me to my fate below — incineration. I stand very still. To move would be to lose my balance and become cinder too soon.

I RECOGNIZE the voice: "Mummy, can I take this magazine to school? It has a story in it that is full of symbols, and Mr. Walker just loves symbols."

YOU, my friend, have not believed me from the beginning. But you say you do. And that makes you a phony.
Prey (1973)
Mr. Harding is leaning on a rake as the car pulls up to the mailbox. It is morning in an Oregon spring, the trees are green, pink and white, the earth is chocolate, the sky is light blue. There is no wind. Although the tips of the firs can be seen to sway gently from time to time, there is no wind below, where Mr. Harding leans on his rake. It is April, and the snakes are coming out of hibernation.
The stray cat, the one Helen called Butch, was sunning on the mailbox until moments ago, which is why Mr. Harding stopped raking to wait for the car to come into view from behind the cluster of trees up the street. With a sense strange to him, the cat is able to pick out the mailman's car; or at any rate, it never scampers off its sunning perch when the passing vehicle belongs to a neighbor. When Mr. Harding saw the cat jump to the ground and run across the yard, coming toward the mound of mulch in back, he figured the mailman was near. He stopped working to lean on the rake and wait.


Nails it!


Sunday, March 17, 2019


Future Limited

The measure of my well being is my ability to make my own breakfast. When I lose that, I might as well take care of business myself because life will be accelerating downhill. With luck, I should have another five years or so.

Well, who the hell knows? I do know this: if I go first, Harriet is unable to take of herself and needs to move back into the retirement facility, or another similar one. Her money should be fine until her mid-nineties, when he finite retirement bundle runs out. Stupid way to set it up in my opinion. At any rate, she has kids to help her if need be.

REQUIEM is going slowly but well. Slow writing is so different but very suited to my old energy level, which is low. I must have rewritten paragraph one several dozen times by now.

Baking bread. All is well, relatively speaking.

College sports

Ban them all and start over, making all college sports intramural. If pro teams want farm teams, let them set them up and pay for them. Pros have been using colleges for this purpose for far too long. College athletics lost any association with amateurism long ago.

In other words, no athletic scholarships, period. Let college jocks get exercise, not career preparation.

And I speak as a lifelong college sports fan. But the corruption has gone too far. It can't be fixed. Time to start over.

Thursday, March 14, 2019

Kids lead the way

In my play FAMILY CLIMATE, high school kids form a huge national movement regarding climate change. In the play, it doesn't end well.

Today's headline:

‘Our future is what
we are fighting for’

They've come of age in a warming world. Now, students in nearly 100 countries and dozens of U.S. states are skipping school to fight climate change.

Read the story. 

I hope it turns out better than my play does.

Tuesday, March 12, 2019

Higher education

Actresses Felicity Huffman and Lori Loughlin are among dozens of people charged by the FBI in an elite college admission scheme, documents unsealed Tuesday in Boston revealed. 
The Hollywood stars allegedly joined CEOs of private and public companies, real estate professionals and a fashion designer in paying up to $6 million in bribes to ensure that their children were accepted to schools such as Yale and Georgetown. Most of the parents paid $250,000 to $400,000 per student. 
Read the story. 

Blogging

Maybe I've been blogging for too damn long. I have little energy to keep this going.

On the other hand, I've been thinking of another blog, possibly more useful: some info for young writers, or wannabe writers, from an old writer, primarily to discourage them from continuing. Ha ha ha. I mean, would I have begun, knowing what was ahead? On the other hand, as a screenwriter once said, "The only reason to be an artist is that you're incapable of being anything else."

Brooding.

But REQUIEM is in good early shape, I think. New start better. Conceptually. No actual writing yet.

In Zen, poetry is not the words on paper but the mode of thought in the mind of the poet.

No wonder I'm an alien! 

Sunday, March 10, 2019

Page one again

Interesting to develop a book as slowly as old age is creating REQUIEM. A very different experience than my obsessive past. At any rate, changing the point of view, which requires a page one rewrite. But more enthusiastic about the story than ever, though I have no idea yet for an ending or even second act. But I love the premise and the characters, so I hobble ahead.

Thursday, March 7, 2019

My favorite car

Graduation present (UCLA), 1966, off to grad school at U of O in it, drove it for years, until divorce on east coast, return to west, 1978. "Travels With Ruby" chronicled summer camping trip across U.S., published in NW Magazine.


Tuesday, March 5, 2019

1967

This was an important, indeed incredible, year for me. I dropped out of my PhD program at the Univ of Oregon and moved to Portland, to see if I could "become a writer." Coming with me, to my shocked delight, was my love interest at the time, a graduate student on full scholarship who gave it up to come with me and take a shit job so I'd have more time to write. Incredible! (My soul mate, I thought, before she came out as a lesbian.)

We moved into an apartment on Mississippi Ave. Today, a very hip area of Portland. Then a mostly black, low rent district. Across the street, a house of ill repute (I know from men coming across the street to the wrong place.) Down the way, an after-hours cafe where booze was served in coffee cups and where police made 3 and 4 a.m. rounds and let everybody be (payoff, I assume). And I took a part-time job and focused are writing literary short stories for art and journalistic features for money.

The transition took a year but was successful. I began publishing both modes regularly. Hence, this apartment has great personal meaning for me, the place where I became a writer. I'll never forget 1967-8.



And almost half a century later, another look at this time of my life:

Monday, March 4, 2019

"Patriotism is the last refuge of a scoundrel." Samuel Johnson


Birthday

My brother would have been 74 today.

ON RAIN

All morning I study rain:
solemn on the shingled roof,
bubbly in the puddle!
Preliminary finding:
many kinds of rain to hear,
many shades of gray to see.
The yin & yang of rain:
filling up the sparrows' basin,
knocking down the apple blossoms.


I made this film about Bill from home movies, summer of 1966.

Sunday, March 3, 2019

Strange, very strange

Something very surreal about being on the planet these days. Despite great youthful energy around the world, it appears unlikely climate disaster will be faced before it's too late. Here in the U.S., far beyond my understanding, millions of citizens don't judge Trump by his character and just think he's dandy. What failure of an educational system produced MINDS like these? Institutional racism can't explain everything.

What a goddamn mess. The world is reduced to private comfort. Maybe it was always this way.

Friday, March 1, 2019

March 15

Youth Climate Movement to World Leaders: We Will 'Change 
Fate of Humanity, Whether You Like It or Not'

Student climate strikers issue open letter ahead of global day of action on March 15 that will consist of more than 500 events in over 50 countries

Doing it right